For those who do not know.

dsc_5547cross posted from her cancer blog.

For those of you who are not aware, my wife, Dawn Faust Bibby, lost her battle with metastatic breast cancer at 07:15 am on August 06, 2016.
Dawn was a warrior, she was an inspiration, she fought the good fight with everything she had.

The doctors she worked for failed her in several ways. They canceled her COBRA coverage when they sold their practice. She was not informed of this in advance nor did they help her to find alternative coverage. She went slightly more then a month without any health insurance. She discovered the loss of insurance when she attempted to renew the prescription for her cancer pill. The little pill that kept her cancer penned in. The little pill she took every day to keep her cancer away or at least from spreading. She was not able to take that pill for 24 days. Looking back, we now know that is when her cancer began spreading like wildfire and mutating. I will leave the failure list at one. That one is quite enough.

We knew things were not going good, but we had hope and we fought on. I say we, because those who know us, know that WE did most everything together. WE fought cancer. I had no better use for my time then to do whatever Dawn needed done. Sometimes that meant doing errands, sometimes that meant folding the laundry, sometimes that meant holding her hand and telling her I love her. More often then not, it meant driving her to Miami for her treatments, so we went to Miami.

On our last trip to Miami, she went down to have a procedure done to insure her breathing would be better. Her plural cavity had mets and the cavity would fill up with fluid as a result. So she got a procedure that fused the cavity. No cavity, no retention of fluid, easier breathing. After that surgery, even despite the abuse of surgery, her breathing was obviously better. Within 8 hours it was a success. But she needed an MRI to see why her kidneys were not acting right. Long story short, the results of that MRI showed the “minor” liver mets had never been minor and most certainly wasn’t anymore. Our agreement with the doctors in Miami was the COMPLETE truth. We got it, finally. We finally got the report from two months earlier and the current report. Quite simply, Dawn had massive mets in the liver as well as the pancreas and other related areas. With prodding, the doctor said in his opinion, she had a week or two on this earth.

That was an important two weeks. It gave us time to get back to where we live. It gave us time to make family and friends aware. It gave the kids and others time to come to her side. It gave us time to talk. And talk we did. She was so gracious. As she had throughout our entire marriage, she blessed me with wisdom. She helped me to see ways to forgive some people, ways to jump start my grieving process. She grieved with me. After all, she was losing me. I cannot explain how much her words of encouragement, faith and just holding her hand while we cried, helped.

As the actual day neared, she realized she might die on her brother’s birthday. She adamantly stated that would NOT happen. She demanded that I help her to make it past Thursday. She told me when we were alone, she did not want much pain medicine. She wanted to be sure she was lucid enough to fight that damn cancer until Friday morning came. I swore to her, that I would honor that and her other wishes. I did. By Friday morning, her resolve was still set, but her lucidity was not really there anymore. I repeatedly told her she made it. I repeatedly told her she beat her Thursday deadline. After one such monologue, she had a bubble of lucidity. She thanked me for getting her into Friday. While I had her attention, I told her to stop fighting. I told her to let the Valkarys come and take her. She smiled past the pain and whispered, they can come again, now.

That was the last thing I am aware of Dawn saying. She fought of the Angels of God so her brother would not have to remember her dying on his birthday. That was just the kind of woman she is. I say is, because she taught me one last thing in those two weeks. Love never dies. If love never dies, then she never dies. She was forced to discard her mortal body in order to take on her perfect form. This means, neither she nor her love die. This means those of us who love her, if we keep our souls right, will see her again in that perfect form.

I know it motivates me.

Thank you for reading her cancer blog. This will likely be the last post.
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September 3, 2016 · 10:31

Update on the hiking

Day one – 2.5 miles at 3.8 mph  2nd 2.5 miles at 3 mph walking with the wife

Day two – life intervened

Day three – 2.5 miles at 4.2 mph and in the dark.

more to follow

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PT as prepping

What have you done for getting your PT (physical training) stowed away?

Most people talk about getting in shape.  Most people are capable of making some sort of plans for getting in better shape.  The issue from there comes as two distinct factors.  The first side is picking an activity that will actually be done beyond the honeymoon period.  As in it is almost February and the new of New Years resolutions are wearing off, will you keep that resolution now that the “new” has worn off.  The second side of fail in most people’s PT plan is picking a plan that is useful beyond just “getting in better shape”.  Doing endless hours of treadmill work, only conditions you for doing treadmill work.

My new PT plan combines prepping with PT.  I have my SHTF pack all packed up and I am conditioning myself to humping it around town.  My initial goal is a 5 mile hump in less than 2 hours.  I have intermediate goals set in place with timelines that will need to be adjusted to reflect the reality of how I am progressing.  I have a final goal of being able to hump the pack 50 miles in a 24 hour period.  This is a serious push goal for me considering I am not talking about an unencumbered walk down the sidewalk.  This is a (mostly flat) terrain hike with a 45-50# pack (+/- 30% of body weight).

Being able to make this trek will serve several purposes.  It will build my endurance.  It will test out my gear.  It will get me used to my load.  It will give me time to test some of the basic components.  It will give me confidence.  Probably the most important part is it will make carrying and doing things with the pack on part of my routine.  It will help me to eventually extend my situational awareness while hiking as the pack becomes part of my person.

This is my prep initiative for the week.  What was yours?

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Ebola – nothing to see here


Lets fisk this real quick.

#1. its fragile  –

so is AIDS …  but unlike AIDS this virus can (under certain conditions) exist outside of a host for well past a week.  We’ll put that in mildly scary category.

#2. We know how it works. 

We know how the common cold works too.  AND … that gets us closer to a cure, certainly.  But that little bit of knowledge will do exactly WHAT if we get an outbreak in San Diego, Atlanta, Chicago, NYFC?

3#. We have the resources to contain it.

we have the resources to contain the ebola contained in the two instances of KNOWN PURPOSEFUL importation.  What about when someone unknowingly comes in, has poor hygiene techniques, has a family that attempts to nurse patient zero through it themselves???  I’ll tell you what, we then have an Ebola bloom HERE.

#4. Our medical staff is ready.

Again, you are ready to deal with the two imported “pet” cases.  The medical establishment of the US is NOT in any way shape or form ready for this to bloom like it has in West Africa.  The job abandonment rate alone could cripple the response.  Not to mention the infection rate amongst the first line care givers (CNA’s) who are the ones wiping up the feces, vomit and blood.

#5.  Airports are on alert.

Great.  Are the quarantining questionable passengers?  Have they stopped commercial flights from the seriously infected countries?  So in other words, with a disease that has a 2-21 day incubation period.  TSA and its international bumpkin relatives will make exactly zero effect of controlling the spread of this disease.

Thanks CNN for the anti hysteria spin control.  Tell your master, you did good.

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The Kurds do good


A few weeks ago, the Kurds took land to act as buffer zones against the ISIS radicals.  That was a good decision.

Now the Kurds have taken several oil fields in the Kirkut area.

I am glad at least one group of people in the (soon to be) former Iraq has the brains and balls to act in a self sufficient manner without being completely corrupt, self centered narcissist bastards.  From the stories I have heard from our Special Op soldiers is that the Kurds (as a group) are honest fighters and very willing to keep any assjacks out of their area of control.  Be those people,  Sunni, Shiite, Al Queda or John Kerry.

Now please help me to understand our stance on actively inhibiting this.

We have a mostly pro US group (despite our previous treachery) who really only wants to keep their ancestral homes and way of life from falling under the control of the “Caliphate of Islam” or whatever ISIS is calling its land.  Why are we not falling all over ourselves to assist this proven group of fighters.

Oh wait, see Isreal (and any other group who is pro US and mostly self sufficient)



Now, we won’t even buy Kurdish oil or SELL the Kurds ammunition so they can defend themselves against ISIS.

Hell, we should be DONATING  BEGGING THEM TO TAKE boat loads of ammo  as well as offering incentive pay to Spec Op guys with existing relationships with the Kurds, to go back in theater.


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Alan Gura – victory

Big DC win

In light of Heller, McDonald, and their progeny, there is no longer any basis on which this Court can conclude that the District of Columbia’s total ban on the public carrying of ready-to-use handguns outside the home is constitutional under any level of scrutiny. Therefore, the Court finds that the District of Columbia’s complete ban on the carrying of handguns in public is unconstitutional. Accordingly, the Court grants Plaintiffs’ motion for summary judgment and enjoins Defendants from enforcing the home limitations of D.C. Code § 7-2502.02(a)(4) and enforcing D.C. Code § 22-4504(a) unless and until such time as the District of Columbia adopts a licensing mechanism consistent with constitutional standards enabling people to exercise their Second Amendment right to bear arms.4 Furthermore, this injunction prohibits the District from completely banning the carrying of handguns in public for self-defense by otherwise qualified non-residents based solely on the fact that they are not residents of the District.


DC law that was voided

the pertinent part is:

(4) Pistol not validly registered to the current registrant in the District prior to September 24, 1976, except that the prohibition on registering a pistol shall not apply to:

(A) Any organization that employs at least one commissioned special police officer or other employee licensed to carry a firearm and that arms the employee with a firearm during the employee’s duty hours;

(B) A police officer who has retired from the Metropolitan Police Department;

(C) Any person who seeks to register a pistol for use in self-defense within that person’s home; or

(D) A firearms instructor, or an organization that employs a firearms instructor, for the purpose of conducting firearms training.

Voiding this portion would allow for self-defense use outside of the home.  The way our legal system works, when there is no law forbidding an action; that action is legal and defensible against authority.  That is how many states are Open Carry states.  No law against it, makes it legal and permissible.

An even better voiding

No person shall carry within the District of Columbia either openly or concealed on or about their person, a pistol, or any deadly or dangerous weapon capable of being so concealed. Whoever violates this section shall be punished as provided in § 22-4515, except that:

edited for brevity

if this is voided, it pretty much puts DC in the condition of Constitutional Carry.  As of last night, DC has better carry laws (lack of) then Texas, Florida and Arizona.  Now I am not driving up to DC to Open Carry down Pennsylvania Avenue today.  I really can’t afford the test case legal fees or the potential bullet holes in my chest from DCPD.  But, technically this is completely legal, right now.

I fully expect the DC legislative goons to enact some emergency provision to shut this down around 9am Monday morning.  However, the judge specifically stated DC must enact a Constitutionally acceptable method of allowing for CCW and Constitutional Carry is in effect until they do.  This will likely result in a knee jerk reaction the the DC kleptocrats that includes extensive and expensive training programs, extremely long wait times, “good character” limitations and specific narrow limits on which firearms are “safe enough to carry”, possibly even regulations of ammunition that is “safe enough to carry”.

Even though this would seem like a loss to our side, in the long run such defensive actions should result in an even larger / more explicit win for us.  We will get injunctions, we will get further definition from the court, we will have sympathetic people whose right is adversely affected and Scotus will be forced to more narrowly define the “reasonable restrictions” of Heller.  We should be able to effectively revoke “poll taxes”, character checks and all other effective bans on the poor and not politically connected from receiving a carry permit.

Thank you Alan Gura and SAF for all your help in securing our RKBA as written.




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Does Israel have the right to self defense?

Palestinian U.N. envoy, Riyad Mansour, said the Palestinians’ understanding is that the cease-fire should go into effect immediately.

Really asshole.  So when you send several hundred rockets into Israeli residential neighborhoods, you know, aimed at innocent civilians that is ok.  Israel sends several sorties of guided missiles at legitimate military targets and there needs to be an immediate cease-fire?
He said the Palestinians will be watching closely to see if the Israelis respond to the council’s call, stressing that if they don’t “we have a lot of tools in our arsenal.
Really asshole, if you had more tools you would be using them. 
Suicide bombers, seen them
unguided rockets – meet iron dome
knife and gun wielding terrorists attacking children, seen that too
why don’t you try some economic sanctions – oh wait, you don’t have an economy
What about a stand up fight – oh wait, you don’t have an army … or discipline
When I was a little kid, my dad gave me some good advice.  Don’t start a fight you can’t finish, and if your smart don’t start a fight you can’t win.  But, its even better if you can avoid the fight.  For those fights you have to be in, be sure to win.
Somehow, I think the Palestinians didn’t have that talk with their dad.  It looks like they just run and hide behind mom’s skirt and pray mom will protect them from their own stupidity.
I say, buck up little boy.  You pick a fight with the Big Guy, expect to get you ass handed too you.  The right to self defense and all that.
If I was Israel, I would be seriously tempted to pull up all the reserves and drive all your people back to where they came from and build a fence. Like the one we need on our Southern Border.

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