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This time of year

There is something about this time of year that makes me introspective.  Perhaps it is the end of the year.  Perhaps it is the gathering of family.  Perhaps it is just me getting older.

As I write this, I sit in a house (the only one awake) with 3 of my 4 kids (technically Dawn’s kids, but in my heart they are mine) and my daughter in law.  The fourth will be part of the festivities, she just has her own place close by.

I am quite happy to have driven 13 hours to be part of this gathering.  I am happy to have been a part of creating bonds that allow this gathering.  I am happy that the kids chose to all come together and I am happy that they felt the desire to include me.  I realize that many step parents are not actively included and even more so after the bio-parent dies.

I am a quasi parent that loves these people but also knows they must be their own people, on their own journeys.  My job is to help when I can, to provide overwatch and to advise where appropriate. I must also give them plenty of room to be their own people.  To varying degrees and at various times they succeed and fail.  No different than me.

I am proud of this group for remaining a group and for pulling close in the face of death and familial struggle.  It is a good Christmas.  I am thankful.


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Love vs attachment

I have been doing a lot of thinking over the past month or so.  As any of you have read my other blog posts have noticed, I recently lost a great woman and a relationship with so much potential.  I am an introspective person, sometimes not in the moment, but I always perform a DEEP after action report when things blow up in my face.

In this delve internal I have been bouncing against a flexible wall.  It hasn’t been something I have really been able to grapple with.  The texture and give made analysis difficult, which made me work more diligently at figuring out what I was encountering.  My struggles just seemed to make this particular item even more nebulous.

I think I have figured out my perplexity.  In my mind, I was running into the dichotomy of LOVE vs attachment.  That little part of my brain that is crafty when my upper brain is trying to rationalize things was throwing out a caution flag.  That part of my brain isn’t rational, rather it is an emotional player.  Sometimes it is tragically wrong, but when I listen to it, a good internal conversation always evolves.  It helps me to get perspective.

What that part of my hind brain has been showing me is that I may be attached to my most recent girlfriend more than I was in love.  That came as a shock to me.  It struck me and derailed all my thought patterns for an entire day.  I had to sift through “attachment”.  I had to step back and investigate.

I should explain attachment.

Attachment differs from love in subtle but extremely important ways.  Attachment is a needful compulsion.  This is where you need the connection to the other person.  The connection is more important than the feelings or desires of the other party.  Jealousy and rage are often the by product of the slightest errors with an attached person.  Loss of the relationship is terrifying in this case as there is no independence or desire for such.

In contrast, love is a freely given association of two people who CHOOSE to share deeply.  They are happy and encourage the independent fulfillment of each other’s desires and dreams.  They absolve one another of the small errors in life and find them as opportunities for deeper communication.

Love tends to endure, as it is an open expression of willing sharing between equals.  Love is forgiving and reinforces the good, it acts to build and strengthen.

Attachment stems from a situation of lack.  It is guarded and jealous, perceives all others as potential threats and reinforces the negatives which continually degrades and weakens the relationship.  It begins and by its very nature must end in self reinforcing pain.

I have been in both situations.  I know that sometimes one party is attached and the other party loves.  This is probably the worst scenario as a cycle of vampirism runs its course with both lefts sucked dry.

One can never be certain of the situation on the other side, the motivations of the other party.  But, I have grappled with this notion from my hind brain and I know that I was working from a position of love and I think she was too, but several things including fear got in the way.  The great thing about love — it never dies.  Never.  With breath there is life.  With life there is hope.  With hope there is love.  When there is love, all things are possible.  ALL THINGS.



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Alan Gura – victory

Big DC win

In light of Heller, McDonald, and their progeny, there is no longer any basis on which this Court can conclude that the District of Columbia’s total ban on the public carrying of ready-to-use handguns outside the home is constitutional under any level of scrutiny. Therefore, the Court finds that the District of Columbia’s complete ban on the carrying of handguns in public is unconstitutional. Accordingly, the Court grants Plaintiffs’ motion for summary judgment and enjoins Defendants from enforcing the home limitations of D.C. Code § 7-2502.02(a)(4) and enforcing D.C. Code § 22-4504(a) unless and until such time as the District of Columbia adopts a licensing mechanism consistent with constitutional standards enabling people to exercise their Second Amendment right to bear arms.4 Furthermore, this injunction prohibits the District from completely banning the carrying of handguns in public for self-defense by otherwise qualified non-residents based solely on the fact that they are not residents of the District.


DC law that was voided

the pertinent part is:

(4) Pistol not validly registered to the current registrant in the District prior to September 24, 1976, except that the prohibition on registering a pistol shall not apply to:

(A) Any organization that employs at least one commissioned special police officer or other employee licensed to carry a firearm and that arms the employee with a firearm during the employee’s duty hours;

(B) A police officer who has retired from the Metropolitan Police Department;

(C) Any person who seeks to register a pistol for use in self-defense within that person’s home; or

(D) A firearms instructor, or an organization that employs a firearms instructor, for the purpose of conducting firearms training.

Voiding this portion would allow for self-defense use outside of the home.  The way our legal system works, when there is no law forbidding an action; that action is legal and defensible against authority.  That is how many states are Open Carry states.  No law against it, makes it legal and permissible.

An even better voiding

No person shall carry within the District of Columbia either openly or concealed on or about their person, a pistol, or any deadly or dangerous weapon capable of being so concealed. Whoever violates this section shall be punished as provided in § 22-4515, except that:

edited for brevity

if this is voided, it pretty much puts DC in the condition of Constitutional Carry.  As of last night, DC has better carry laws (lack of) then Texas, Florida and Arizona.  Now I am not driving up to DC to Open Carry down Pennsylvania Avenue today.  I really can’t afford the test case legal fees or the potential bullet holes in my chest from DCPD.  But, technically this is completely legal, right now.

I fully expect the DC legislative goons to enact some emergency provision to shut this down around 9am Monday morning.  However, the judge specifically stated DC must enact a Constitutionally acceptable method of allowing for CCW and Constitutional Carry is in effect until they do.  This will likely result in a knee jerk reaction the the DC kleptocrats that includes extensive and expensive training programs, extremely long wait times, “good character” limitations and specific narrow limits on which firearms are “safe enough to carry”, possibly even regulations of ammunition that is “safe enough to carry”.

Even though this would seem like a loss to our side, in the long run such defensive actions should result in an even larger / more explicit win for us.  We will get injunctions, we will get further definition from the court, we will have sympathetic people whose right is adversely affected and Scotus will be forced to more narrowly define the “reasonable restrictions” of Heller.  We should be able to effectively revoke “poll taxes”, character checks and all other effective bans on the poor and not politically connected from receiving a carry permit.

Thank you Alan Gura and SAF for all your help in securing our RKBA as written.




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Why green energy when this? (Click here)

Please help me to understand why we “invested” roughly $90 Billion dollars in green energy initiatives under the Obama administration.  You know such rousing successes as Soylent Green – I mean Solyndra, Abound Solar, A123 Systems…

I ask this because we have a group (in the above link) that thinks they have cracked the code on turning Natural Gas into

GASOLINE.  Please read the article, but I will give you a teaser.  The crude oil base for the gasoline costs roughly $100 per barrel.  The equivalent amount of natural gas costs $20 per barrel.  That is 1/5 the price for the same amount of gasoline producing product.  There are costs to the process, costs for this and that.  We are still talking roughly HALF price gas (before taxes). 

Anyone interested in sub $2.00 per gallon gasoline?  Anyone?

Actually, I already understand the answer to my opening line. 

Payola for campaign contributions

$8 per gallon gas slows global warming or something

$8 per gallon gas definitely removes freedom and power from the CITIZENS …

Coal is evil – you though I would forget that one.  Causes asthma, shingle, rosacea on Al Gore’s face and West Virginia to have JOBS.

And the almighty reason of feeling good for doing something (ineffectual) to save mother gaia.



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January 21, 2014 · 20:02

Welcome to a Freer America Sean (Click here)

Sean Hannity finally takes the plunge.

Although I do feel a little bit of sorrow for the few staff members who will lose their jobs, that is tempered by the fact that they are choosing to stay a slave in that state when given the choice to move to citizenship in a freedom loving state.

To Sean.  Its about time.  Florida and Texas a great places.  I chose Florida, but either choice is a much better one than the crumbling (former) Empire State.  And yes I know from direct (+/- 10 years NYC) experience.

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January 21, 2014 · 08:56

Schadenfreude – ACA vs Illinois CCW (click here)

In two months of Illinois obamacare enrollment, +/-7200 people enrolled.

In ONE DAY, +/- 4500 people signed up for the Illinois Carry Permit.


I really don’t think I need to add anything else that that.  Self explanatory.

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January 7, 2014 · 11:05

24″ White Oaks Armament AR upper vs GA deer

Dec 2013 9 pt

For all of you who decide to bitch because I shot a deer with a .223,  BACK OF THE BUS and shut up.

For the record, Georgia allows the use of .223 for hunting deer.  I used a heavy for caliber bullet.  I purchased two 5 round magazines to make my AR legal for hunting in GA.  I had a 3×9 scope mounted as well as a 2×4 bolted into the wall of my blind for a rest.

Aside from wanting to shoot a deer with an AR, I also wanted to do a lethality test of the Berger 77gr OTM bullet.  I hit the deer just below the spine, just above and behind the front right shoulder blade.  The deer did not take another step.  It dropped like a watermelon off the tailgate, no bounce, no kick, no nothing.  So much nothing, there wasn’t even any blood.  Yes, you heard me right, there was no blood on the entry side and no exit wound.  If I had not stone dropped the deer, it would have been near impossible to track.

From a lethality perspective, these bullets rock.  From a blood trail sense, these bullets suck.  So from my data point of one (which is somewhat equal to an anecdote), these are not the best hunting bullets.  In the home defense or anti-zombie role, I would not hesitate for a second.

The White Oaks Armament upper worked like a champ.  I did some quick load testing using AA 2520 powder.  Max load is 25.5gr.  I backed that down to a max of 25.4 and dropped 0.1 gr each for 6 test loads.  Beginning with 24.9gr and checking for accuracy and overpressure at each level.  Both 25.2 and 25.4 tested at roughly the same accuracy with no signs of over pressure.  The 25.2 load had 5 rounds in 3/4″ with the 25.4 load in just under 1″ at 100 yds.  I went with the 25.2gr load both for better accuracy and lower pressure / safety margin.  This was with zero effort into adjusting bullet length etc.  I went with magazine length minus .01″ for reliable feeding.  I was really happy to have that degree of accuracy with such little load testing.  The deer was not so happy.

For those of you who are not aware of the drill.  My scale, my gun, my brass, my powder are all different than yours.  Do not use my powder amount or anything else without working up to them using the proper manner.  You have been warned and I take no responsibility for your silliness.

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